I am not this kind of person

I am not the kind of person that says “I’m the kind of person that…”

this expression genuinely angers me with the fire of a thousand suns,
as it usually comes with a bizarre sense of pride in a shortcoming:
“oh, I’m not a math person”

with little exceptions (e.g. dyscalculia) that’s usually code for “I can’t be bothered to think and don’t want to look bad.”

note: saying “I’m not the kind of person that enjoys killing” – is perfectly acceptable, and in fact, desirable.

you could very well say, “well, I just don’t like math, I’m not good at it, I prefer using a calculator instead”

ah, well…
having a preference and being unable to do something are completely different things.

you are exactly the kind of person you want to be.

having this awareness is immensely freeing, but also bears a hefty burden of responsibility,

“I am not the kind of person that…” then becomes “I choose not to….”

I choose not to be a math person is perfectly valid, you can’t be everything.

so, what kind of a person are you?

I’ll see you tomorrow.

today is day 234 of the year, there are 132 days remaining of 2022.